Drifting to Fall.

Through all my faults and failures I am supposed to be becoming wiser right? From another perspective I haven’t failed, I am just on the road to becoming the person I will be on the day I die, like everybody else. The key is to not worry about that day which I don’t, and to be happy with yourself, which brings me to a point that has been brought to my attention recently, I do not know myself so how could I be happy?

My life is a complex mis-mash of achievements and failures, rights and wrongs and ups and downs but that’s life eh? Have you ever contradicted yourself and stood back and though whoah, hang on a minute, my thoughts and feelings are well in check if I can question my own reasoning, so then cognitive dissonance becomes an impossibility right? According to books and articles i have read from various sources, I am ADHD, Aspergers, Psychopathic, Depressed, Allergic, Introvert, Manic Depressive, Sociopathic and Angst to name a few, I say fuck you. Maybe that’s who I am, another person who doesn’t fit in so he freaks out every now and again to create some balance so he can continue living a massive lie. But ultimately I don’t honestly know.

Add comment August 22nd, 2021