The Present!

Mine and Lisa’s 1st (paper) wedding anniversary today, seems odd it was a year ago we got married, the thoughts fresh in my memory make it seem not so long ago. I felt a little lonely though, only some kind remarks from Lisa’s hairdresser and my parents seemed to pervade. I gather the impression I no longer have any friends for reasons unbeknown to me, up until just a few years ago I suffered episodes of depression and periods of ‘I’m alright Jack.’ I guess this behaviour might manifest myself as a bit of a loser and could produce a sense of rejection in those at a spectator level. I would have been powerless to prevent this, my speculation today is nearly four years past, if I could change these things I would but that notion is futile, I have learned something on my journey so far and that is to live as much as possible in the present moment, this is all that exists for real, ever. The past consists of a collection of memories and feelings associated with what has been and gone, the future is just a random collection of thoughts based on things we perceive that might affect us, the only real thing is the present. My present right now is some cool tunes and telling all I’m doing just great 🙂

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