How do I feel today? Tearful but relieved. I have taken a week off to sort my shit out, it’s getting sorted bit by bit and not necessarily in my favour. But time has a secret weapon, or is it time gives pause for thought to dwell upon your experiences for justification.
3 comments July 29th, 2022
Been going over some of my ramblings in the past and it has dawned on me I might have actually dumbed down a bit! So in essence of the fact that keeping some sort of a journal is actually good for the soul, I am going to make an effort to try and re-invigorate any linguistic prowess I may have once had and make it my mission to do at least one post per week. Do you believe me? Who the hell am I even asking??? Watch this space!
2 comments July 14th, 2022
For whatever reason I am destined to live out my life alone so it seems, In all honesty it’s good thing. I dont want to be burdened with others’ baggage, my views and opinions generally go unchecked and I can’t be wasting my life anymore with people who do not listen. Maybe one day I may make friends but I will not hold my breath.
Add comment October 3rd, 2021
Another fork in the road that is my lifeline takes a turn towards solitude, is this where I am supposed to be? I don’t dislike myself, I feel I have positive attributes within society only I see society as a failed experiment drifting towards oblivion, this confuses me. Does that make my my feelings null and void?
A quote: ‘It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society.’ Krishnamurti.
Society is sick without a doubt so would this make any of my feelings of accomplishment futile. I think not, I am not responsible for how society has evolved, I do the best with the tools I have and my thinking is I get up and work everyday as a part of this societal conditioning we all endure and I have a purpose, I am a cog in the machine. The truth is I would not survive alone and I see an amalgamation of thoughts and ideas between others within a group would benefit, but still I sit alone, Maybe one day I will discover something that explains it all.
Add comment September 5th, 2021
Through all my faults and failures I am supposed to be becoming wiser right? From another perspective I haven’t failed, I am just on the road to becoming the person I will be on the day I die, like everybody else. The key is to not worry about that day which I don’t, and to be happy with yourself, which brings me to a point that has been brought to my attention recently, I do not know myself so how could I be happy?
My life is a complex mis-mash of achievements and failures, rights and wrongs and ups and downs but that’s life eh? Have you ever contradicted yourself and stood back and though whoah, hang on a minute, my thoughts and feelings are well in check if I can question my own reasoning, so then cognitive dissonance becomes an impossibility right? According to books and articles i have read from various sources, I am ADHD, Aspergers, Psychopathic, Depressed, Allergic, Introvert, Manic Depressive, Sociopathic and Angst to name a few, I say fuck you. Maybe that’s who I am, another person who doesn’t fit in so he freaks out every now and again to create some balance so he can continue living a massive lie. But ultimately I don’t honestly know.
Add comment August 22nd, 2021
What better opportunity do I have to prepare for apocalypse, I am off work but being paid, not much but enough to keep the cogs turning. So why do I dwell? Today I cemented some slabs on the patio…WOAHH!!! that will fight off the anarchists kicking in my door to rape my family wont it…no. I could teach my son Ninja techniques but he’s a snowflake. Get my wife fit now she’s had her back sorted, maybe train her in some jujitsu we’ll see. Firearms training, another thought, Joe has a bit of field training but doesn’t have the personality of a leader. In all honesty I just want the shit to hit the fan asap so we can deal with it, then humanity can carry on without the bullshit we have had delivered to us for decades past.
2 comments May 16th, 2020
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