Aha! Another post, does he have some interesting piece of news to share I hear you ask, or maybe he’s embarked on a new venture or started a project? Probably neither. Down to 4pm finishes at work so I can spend a bit more time with the family and lost 10lb body weight in two weeks, these are the only significant things really, that’s really how dreadfully dull I have become. Any way, I have an urge to take my PC apart now so that is all. Bye bye.
Add comment April 18th, 2015
Why do people write blogs? I just Googled it and it seems my reasons are a little sad, most people blog about things they are interested in to a depth in which other like minded people respond for advice or assistance etc. I talk about how I feel, PKU, some techy stuff, that’s about it… I know if I dedicated this site to PKU and provided the links, it would become a quite vibrant place, but my problems with PKU get in the way. Technically I am not a master of anything, so I could not keep up a detailed blog of interesting artefacts about any particular subject to make the site useful for that purpose. This blog will continue I hope, I have had mixed feedback from others that have read it. There will never be a solid subject nor will anything necessarily connect as it will always be me at the helm, whatever that means.
1 comment April 3rd, 2015
As I began to worry about my low moods and an exponential overspend this month I decided to take back control. Part of this was the purchase of Tyrosine capsules from Holland and Barrett. I usually use Bulk Powders (.co.uk) but needed to start immediately, these are mainly sold as an aid to training in sports or other physical activity where an increase in focus and concentration is of benefit. Tyrosine is an amino-acid, years ago I did some quite in depth research in to the metabolism of protein and in particular the amino acids Tyrosine and Phenylalanine, Phenylalanine is a precursor to Tyrosine, Tyrosine being necessary for the synthesis of certain hormones and neurotransmitters in particular Dopamine and Noradrenaline, the latter most responsible for vigilant concentration in contrast to its most chemically similar hormone, Dopamine, which is most responsible for cognitive alertness. My condition prevents the production of Tyrosine from Phenylalanine, so naturally my Tyrosine levels are rock bottom at times, go figure. So I prescribed myself pure Tyrosine and the results were quite significant, lately I have been taking a large dose in comparison the recommendations on the label but this coupled with a normal diet, which I still feel guilty pangs about, means the fog doesn’t exist and my focus has improved along with my general well-being. Maybe this is my way of being in control, the diet I find difficult to sustain maybe even impossible, I need to settle my mind as to how I can manage this condition, remain focussed and alert and above all be happy, not only for my sake but those closest to me, I owe it to my family.
Add comment March 27th, 2015
I wander… Not only in my own solitude but when I am busiest, recreationally I relax and read or play a game or practice an instrument, when I work I seek the path of least resistance coupled with the most favourable outcome, finding ways to ease monotony is an area in which I have learned to excel, I am never bored. This is a sudden revelation and something compels me to try and explain, I have never regarded myself as lazy but analytical, I am far happier solving a problem than I am fitting ‘a part’ so to speak. Seeing an easier way to complete a task and not rewriting the procedure is futile to me. A bloke who I worked alongside in Edwards High Vacuum once said to me, ‘A lazy person will always find the easiest way to do things.’ Brilliant! The reason this phrase stayed with me is because of it’s subtle oxymoronic overtones and enduring prevalence to the fact that the possibility of creativity was so ignorantly rejected, or maybe he was just a very clever cynic (doubtful), a signature of our times I suppose. But there are rules that need to be adhered to so that we fit in and continue as we do.
The fact is I will continue to write all this random stuff down because it appeases me a little, puts certain things to bed and forces me to be honest. Like a private diary hidden under a bed, this blog infuses the passion in me to be open and honest, knowing that one day somebody will undoubtedly run their hand under the mattress.
3 comments March 6th, 2015
Had a crap day at work today. I do not classify my profession as “Plumber.” But there are some technically inept employees within the firm I am employed by, so it seems if the shit hits the fan, send Craig in to save the day! This is a procedure I wish to cut short before I become everybody’s bodge fixer. I have tactfully prepositioned myself in an electrical sense, 17th Edition looming, as most guys don’t do electrics (fair-do), whereas I don’t really want to do water, my job title is Commercial ‘GAS’ Engineer after all. But today everything fought me, I found myself cutting through brass nuts and slicing olives to enable things to fit, bends on pipes that are normally straight, in fact anything to make it hard work, appeared. Which is why I hate plumbing and I don’t do plumbing and I did a commercial gas course and I will wire anything just to get out of changing a f***ing 3 port valve!
I miss my desk at Drallim Industries, not a drop of water or a smelly council tenant in sight, just a PC with Proteus, a prototype bench and a kitchen across the hallway offering free coffee and 2 microwave ovens just incase the hippy from the shop floor beat you to it with her seaweed and chickpea falafel lunch, if that job re-appeared tomorrow paying 10K less than I earn today, I would snap it up. Nothing makes you feel more wasted than doing a job you are over qualified for and don’t like doing but pays more than the job you really want to do and should be doing!
I try to convince myself I have a decent job and still with a nose in on the technical aspects, but day to day, it sure doesn’t feel that way. It would be a start if I could apply my experience in a design sense or even in a supervisory role, but just waiting for an opportunity seems futile to me these days. So, carry on eh? Or talk to people? I need to move on, I cant be hanging upside down in an airing cupboard for much longer.
Add comment February 28th, 2015
All of a sudden I have toothache… What a bastard that is. The wife has Google’d several remedies and I have shoved all sorts of stuff into my gob. Bizarrely it isn’t too bad right now. So I can concentrate on an interesting post right? Don’t get too excited about that, my life is mundane, my literacy is poor and my imagination departed soon after the realisation that the real world my Parents warned me about, actually (exists). Although my perception of reality is quite different from that of my Parents, maybe because I am an engineer and the technical advances are… yeah ok with me. Or maybe because the religious backbone that once had society in it’s grip has since been uncompressed. Whereas I can quite understand my Dad’s frustration when trying to set up his new digital TV, I patiently offer advice that scoots aimlessly at a 45 degree angle above what used to be a technically competent person, though now in his mid seventies. I deal with old people on a daily basis and I do not consider my parents old, I don’t know whether that is because they are who they are, or whether they really do rock for their age. My old man still climbs roof ladders and scaffolding to do do his house repairs and my Mum keeps an immaculate garden and cooks a mean Apple Pie 😉
So toothache to Apple Pie. Could’ve been shorter hey.
Add comment February 22nd, 2015
