Yay hello world. There is so much shit going on in my head right now it’s impossible for me to get it in order so am able to comment on any one particular subject. Went to a ‘festival’ yesterday, yeah but naaah. Home by 6pm, I was kind of up for a late night experience, a few beers and some unhinged fun and frolicks. Nothing of the sort, what more can I say, I was in my 20’s during the 90’s. Sorry Gen Z, your live’s must suck. I have four daughters ranging from 14 to 34, so guess what? No it doesn’t involve any magical solution for us men on how the female brain works, But I have two Millenials, a Gen Z and an Alpha, they are all very functional in there own realm, and remember, it was the Gen z’s that brought this generational bullshit online. Who else years back thought a millenial was born in the year 2000? So in the moment is my way forward, as the world descends into chaos and the chitter chatter of a war with Russia. I must remind people that a nuclear nation without hope is a very dangerous place for the world to be in, Putin doesn’t consider himself a loser. Forget the US with that pathetic president the Rothschild’s elected in, they are just trying to forfill an agenda and very much part of that is the Islamification of Europe. The world will end up China, Russia, USA and some kind of Islamic state declared in Europe.
August 23rd, 2026
Hey everybods. The world is going mental as I expected but I feel I have reinforced my emotional responses with the seemingly benile retrofuge I am responsible for administering. Good luck is all I can say. On top of the pessimistic values I radiate there is a likelyhood we are going to get some good information about the moon. It’s nice to know that within this chaos, order still exists and there is some resistance to the entropy of humanity.
April 6th, 2026
I find the reason for me persisting with this nonsense is not only nostalgia, where I miss a good friend who left quite a large gap, but because I like to write it seems. Playing around with my language and introducing certain tones and nuances within posts that resonate with the times, I hope I may be able to read back to this particular post and smile. Things are certainly very different and I am on the fence with little to say anymore, a million things have happened but neither of them deserve any highlite. That realm I spoke of, inside my soul still exists, I am beginning to believe it is a hiding place for whats unravelling, an emotional proxy, I will weather this whereas others die in the confusion.
March 17th, 2026
Yes I am tired, it is 11.36pm and I felt something in me that I needed to write here. My freindships have elapsed as has my past, may the two of them be intertwined. I felt I had the final converstaion with my father tonight, it was fraught with misunderstanding more because of his hearing incapacity and his cognitive decline, maybe the two are synonomous with old age. I am slowly losing my Dad, it hurts.
February 1st, 2026
I have this thing inside me, it nutures my creative spirit and brings about a sense of joy with sound, that which like I had as a child. It helps me fathom the complexities of music, it provides a balance with nature that I trust, but the way to get there is fraught with complication. How should this be interpreted, accertaining toward my own sense of being, maybe I can somehow register my reality with this force as it devours my thinking and makes others look in distrust, in a way that’s why I write, to try to comprehned my existence that often feels mediocre, but my presence is so fucking obvious. How else can I satiate that beastly componenent?
September 2nd, 2025
I cried so hard today clutching a piggy bank that my daughter chose for me having been given a £10 note to spend on herself on holiday. The ababsolute selflessness and beauty behind that one simple act will live with me forever, and my trust in her becomes undeniable.
August 31st, 2025
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